I Don't Know Why

Life is unfair, but some may say fair. This is because sometimes you win some, sometimes you lose some. It seems that no one has a perfect life but who knows, I may be wrong.

In working life, there are people who should go but never, while there are people who should stay but didn't.

In life, there are people who should die but never, while there are people who should live but didn't.

There are people who are born with a silver spoon and have nothing to worry about their entire lives, there are people who are not rich and worry about their next meals. I am glad I am in between. I rather be poor and happy than rich and unhappy, but seriously, I just want to be contented with what I have be it rich or poor.

As the saying goes, GOD will help those who help themselves. If people don't want to help themselves, they can only blame themselves eventually. It's frightening to see how people change, or how I change at times.

When I die, I cannot carry all the riches in the world with me. I just hope to be able to make some differences to people's lives, be it whether I am close or not to them.

I acknowledge everyone is different in one way or another. That is ok. Just don't show off. I hate it.

I just want to live a simple life. Is that so hard in the current world where money rules? If I were to strike it rich one day, what would become of me? I will still be the simple me, with more cash that's all.

I don't know why. Only GOD knows why.
Note to Self: Be Happy, Be Committed, Be Filial, Be Calm and Be Kind

12 May 2012

I know I have **** up many times. I really hope all will go well on 12 May 2012, the day where it matters a lot to you.

Of course, what happens after 12 May 2012 is even more important, but that will be revealed in another chapter. :)

2011

5 months in for 2011 and lots of things are happening at the very moment.

Trips: BKK in July, Taiwan in Nov

Wisdom Tooth Extraction in July = 8 days hospitalisation leave hahaha

Maybe can squeeze in a Batam trip in between :)

Preparations for wedding, striving for the best in my career and loving the love of my life with all my heart. :)

Coming to the end of 2010

a) HK Trip (Feb-Mar) - completed!
b) Bangkok Trip (July)- competed!
c) MINT Museum - completed!
d) Horse Riding - not completed, most prob 2011
e) Bodyworks at Science Centre - completed!
f) Ancient World Exhibition - completed!
g) Food Trail 3 - not proper food trail but lots of food, to be continued in 2011
h) Concerts/Musicals - went to some concerts (cheap tickets and some are free)
i) Pulau Ubin - not completed, most prob 2011
j) Batam again for massage - completed in Oct!
k) In the process of thinking...... must add more! Who could have though of? I went volunteering! 5 hrs clocked haha

2010 so far...

a) HK Trip (Feb-Mar) - completed!
b) Bangkok Trip (July)
c) MINT Museum - completed!
d) Horse Riding?
e) Bodyworks at Science Centre - completed!
f) Ancient World Exhibition - completed!
g) Food Trail 3
h) Concerts/Musicals
i) Pulau Ubin
j) Batam again for massage?
k) In the process of thinking...... must add more!

Patience is a virtue

Patience is a virtue. I must try not to be so impatient and I hope you will too. :)

Thinking of activities to do for 2010

a) HK Trip (Feb-Mar)
b) Bangkok Trip (July)
c) MINT Museum
d) Horse Riding?
e) Bodyworks at Science Centre
f) Ancient World Exhibition
g) Food Trail 3
h) Concerts/Musicals
i) Pulau Ubin
j) Batam again for massage?
k) In the process of thinking......

New Year Resolutions 2010

2009 will be coming to a close in another day or so. It has been quite a year for me. Not everything is smooth but generally, it is still quite a good year for me. It is time to move on to year 2010 and though I am not someone who likes to make resolutions, I will try to list down a few for 2010. In no particular order:

1) Making progress in my career.
2) Making my loved ones happy.
3) Keeping a closer watch on my investments and to learn more about new investments and make my investments grow if possible.
4) Moving on to the next phase of my life.
5) To read more and become more knowledgable in general.
6) To keep fit and healthy and to achieve a GOLD in IPPT.
7) To save more

Come end of 2010, I wonder how many of the above I can look at it and say to myself "I have achieved it".

Are you the one?

Another rainy morning
People rushing by
My head is still in the clouds
I dream with open eyes
Suddenly out of nowhere
She came into my life
Like we know each other
For quite a while

In the sound of silence
Time is standing still
Theres some kind of bond between us
Thats givin me the chill
Do you really wonder
That we can burn the sky
Its written a thousand years ago
In the book of life

Are you the one that God had made for me
Are you the one whos always in my dreams
The one who keeps me goin
When I cant go on
The one that Ive been waiting for
For so long

Oh, yeah

Suddenly out of nowhere
She came into my life

Are you the one that God had made for me
Are you the one whos always in my dreams

Are you the one that God had made for me
Are you the one whos mine eternally
The one who keeps me dreamin
When Im sad and tired
Who gives my life a meaning
Till the day I die

Are you the one
Are you the one

(Yes you are)

Songs I Like

2 posts in a night for me! haha

Recently I have been humming songs in the shower. But I realised that I have been humming the same songs every time. This leads me to think that all these songs are actually the songs I like most. Some of this songs have a history and will remind me of the past. Just a list of the songs I like most in no particular order:

1) Eternal Flame by the Bangles: Grew up listening to this song in my dad's car. Whenever this song plays, I will enjoy it very much, though I did not know the song title till I was older. What I like about this song is the simple tune and wonderful voices singing the song. 'Close your eyes, Give me your hand, darlin', Do you feel my heart beating, Do you understand, Do you feel the same"


2) Favourite Band is Scorpions but though I like most of their songs, there are a couple I like best. WInd of Change. Heard this in secondary on some tapes my brother bought. It was the very first time I got exposed to the Scorpions and I grew on to love it. The song has a fantastic tune and the way the lead singer sings it is perfect. Not to mention this song became their hit song as it coincidently signifies the fall of the Berlin Wall. "The wind of change blows straight, into the face of time, like a stormwind that will ring, the freedom bell'

3) Another scorpions love ballad You and I. Powerful ballad sung with good emotions. "You and I just have a dream, to find our love a place, where we can hide away'

4) Every rose has its thorns by Poison - This is 1 song I know the lyrics by heart. It kind of describe my feelings after my 1st breakup almost 10 years ago. 'Every rose has its thorns, just like every night has its dawn'

5) Lian Shang Yi Ge Ren by You Hong Ming - My fave KTV song. Not too difficult to sing haha and the lyrics are very nice! 'Fei yao deng dao ai yuan zou fen liang tou, cai zhi dao duo bu she ni zou' Translation - Must really wait till love is gone or seperated, then realised how relucant it was to let you go?

6) Unforgiven 2 by Metallica - Powerful Song, Powerful Voice. There are 3 songs titled Unforgiven 1, 2 and 3 by them but I like 2 the most. 'I take this key and bury it in you'

7) It must have been love by Roxette - Another song I grew up listening to in my dad's car. I can say this is one of the top 3 songs I like. Fantastic singer, nice but sad lyrics and wonderful music. "It must have been love, but its over now, it was all that I wanted, now I'm living without'

8) Love of a lifetime by Firehouse - Another powerful love ballad. A very simple song but the lyrics are written well. "I finally found the love of a lifetime, a love to last my whole life through'

That's the list for now. I know at least 50% of the lyrics by heart for the 8 songs above haha. As I was writing this post, the youtube video of Lian Shang Yi Ge Ren is playing in the background...guess I can sing this again in the KTV session that is on at the end of this month!

Relaxing place to have dinner

Previously I have not heard of Harry's Bar. However, in the recent months, I have visited there to have dinner with her a few times already. Discovered this branch which is just at Railway Mall and its just behind the place where I stayed. Perfect Location.

Whenever its quite late at night, and we just want to find a comfortable place to have dinner, we will go there. I love their beef lasagne. At $14, its not the cheapest food out there, but the serving is good and along with it comes fries and garden salad in a seperate plate. Sometimes they will have this set dinner which cost $12 nett and $14 nett respectively. Just the other day, we had the BBQ half chicken set and it taste good enough.

At any 1 time, it has never been full house (at least I have not seen it) even on weekends. Maybe the soccer season is over for now. But its quite a quiet place to have dinner and chit chat. There are 2 TV sets mounted on the walls showing sports channel and the music is not too loud and the air con is just about right.

Though its supposed to be a Bar, we have never drink there before. Perhaps it will be good to try? haha

Last thought of the day

Caught a movie called 'Sell Out' in a cinema in Cheras during my trip there a month ago. It is supposed to be a massive hit in Malaysia. (directed by a Malaysian) The starting part of the show is promising but as the show drags on, yeah I really mean DRAG ON for like 2hrs I think, it loses its direction and focus. Can you imagine having a Karaoke segment midway through the show? Where the words come out just like KTV? hahaha Mixed reviews everywhere though.

What do you think of last before you sleep? Thinking of you is priceless as I said. Why do we want to message each other before we sleep every day? It is because you are the last thing in my mind before I fall asleep. As we reflect on the day's happenings as I always do before I sleep, you will come to my mind at the end of it all. Send a simple message to your someone before you sleep each day. A simple gesture with minimal effort touches the heart.

So what is your last thought of the day?

Lazy Afternoon Tea

Lazy Afternoon Tea on May 1st at Foster's Cafe in Holland V followed by dinner at Wala Wala and finally drinks at Coffee Club. I was already very full thus I only had iced water at coffee club. Coming towards the end of a 3 days break as I am typing this. Gosh its 918pm on a Sunday already!

Cleared some clothes and stuff from my waredrobe. Going to donate some stuffs to the Salvation army tomorrow evening. Hope these stuffs will land into someone who needs it. As the saying goes, 'One Man's thrash is another's treasure'. Of course, those stuffs I am giving away are defintely not thrash, just some things which I don't really need and some are brand new!

Looking foward to a short KL trip this coming weekend. 4 days work week for the next two weeks cause I will be taking leave on Fri and Mon! Fantastic!

Hmm I wonder why the music in here is all reduced to 30 seconds only!

Unlucky with Injuries

Having just recovered from a sprained right ankle recently, I got injured again yesterday. This time it was my right toe. I was playing soccer in the field on Saturday afternoon and I went for a 50-50 ball. The other player kicked my toe in the process. F***. I am unable to continue after that as it was very painful.

This is the first time I got injured twice in a space of 2 months. Guess it will be another month or so out of soccer again. DVDs on Saturdays with the loved one here I come! hehe

Went to the TCM clinic this evening and got my first accupuncture treatment. After the doctor pressed my toe to check, I was in pain. Got 3 needles stuck in some points near my toe. First time in my life doing accupuncture though. It wasn't as painful as I though it might be. Oh well, here are some pictures not for the faint hearted!

I am going to work in slippers for the next couple of days at least hahaha! Shirt, pants and slippers! WOW! :p

The Curious Case of the 2 Right Shoes

Have you ever wondered why shoes are made in such a way that there is 1 left and 1 right shoe and they come in a pair? This is because our feet are made this way. The shape is different to begin with. Try wearing 2 right shoes and see if you can walk properly, that is if you don't sprain ur left ankle first. By forcing yourself to wear a right shoe on your left feet, it will push your left feet in such a way that it will be painful.

So why do people want to wear 2 right shoes? Any reasons? Well, simply No. It is only because they have taken the wrong shoes to begin with. I have an army mate last year who bought the army New Balance shoes last year. He just took the size and paid. At the end of the day, as he was leaving the camp, he just opened the shoe box and to his surprise, there are 2 right shoes inside. Damn, if he could have checked at the point of purchase. To make matters worst, it was the last day of the ICT (In Camp Training). On a lighter side, at least its free of charge as he paid using credits given by the army.

A more recent example is when someone wanted to go to the gym. Full of energy and raring to go. Took out the shoes and tried it on. Hmmm, the shape seems the same for both shoes. Exact same size, model. Its just that one shoe seems more worn out than the other. To her surprise and mine, its 2 right shoes! HAHAHA. That certainly brought laughter to me. She should have checked instead of assumed that the shoes in the shoe bag are 1 pair. Lesson learnt: Do not buy shoes that are the same as your family. :p

Having said that, just caught The Curious Case of Benjamin Button yesterday. I must say it is a nice story but a bit too long the movie. It doesn't help when the seat in the cinema is uncomfortable and I have a little backache after 2hr 45mins inside. In addition, a little girl sitting just beside me farted twice during the show. It was loud hahahaha. She muttered 'Excuse me' after each fart.

2 right shoes and the case of Benjamin Button have 1 thing in common. It is a doomed pairing right from the start.

I think...

I think a picture says a thousand words. There, doesn't my blog looks so much better now even with this comical pose of me? hahaha

Sprained Ankle and Stretching Exercises

It has been 4 weeks since I last kicked a ball. Sprained my right ankle one fine Saturday morning, 5 mins into the game. I managed to play for another 2 hours or so. After which there goes my leg.

Even till now, if I try to bend my right ankle or put more pressure on it, it will hurt. It seems like an internal injury. I hope to shrug it off soon though. This coming Saturday, I will try to make my return to the game. Nothing too serious though, just easy play, to make my comeback slowly. I have been itching to kick a ball! hahaha

Just last night, I was reading a magazine when I saw this page which introduce 5 different exercises to boost core strength. This is useful for those who play active sports or simply just sit in office whole day. It will stretch your body and makes you more flexible. (Think YOGA)

Thinking that I should start to exercise after so long, I decided to try them. The first 4 was still managable. The 5th one was the killer. You are supposed to lie on your tummy (I put a folded blanket below to support). Then grabbing your ankles with your hands, you are to lift your torso and thighs up, then try to straighten your legs. Pure yoga stance I tell you. The end result supposed to look like a U shape. hahaha

The end result for me is that my whole back is aching for the whole of today. That is the result of 4 weeks of inactivity. In the midst of planning an exersise routine now though. Hope this routine helps afterall!

Motivate Motivate Motivate!

这就是爱

身为一个不爱交流,不爱说话的人,难怪到了三十岁还找不到一个适合的对象. 他就一个人过着自由自在的生活.

可是,就在这一天,一切将成为了历史,一切将改变了.这件事连他自几都没想过会发生.一个下午,他出门买午餐,在小饭中心选食物时,他身旁来了一个女子,很紧张,好象在找东西似的.他便问她在找什么.原来她的女儿不见了.他便帮她找,不久后找到了.那个女子不知道有多开心, 便要请他吃饭.他起初不要,但最后还是答应了.

奇怪的是.他们在吃饭时,谈了很多事.他也不知道自几今天怎么搞的,跟一个陌生人说了那么多心事.从她那里知到原来她离了婚,有一个五岁的小女孩.就在这时,那个小女孩转过脸来对他笑,灿烂得象太阳.他们三人就这样过了整个下午.

他们一直联络着.过了一段时期,也不知怎么搞的,他们谈到了结婚.认识不久就这样,他自几也不知道,或许她就是他所要的女子.他不管人家离过婚,只知道他们俩一定能过好日子的.就这样,他们结了婚,那个小女孩还叫他“爸爸”.

一转眼间,两年过去了.他还是以前那样,只是变得更沉默了.老婆要什么,他一定会给她.没人知道发生了什么事,也没人管.遥言说他怕老婆,不敢惹她生气.有的人却说,她暗中用了魔法,控制了他,名令他做全部的事情.可是就是没人管.

两年后的一天,一位住在他家旁边的男子看见他一个人在门口低头专注而认真地扫地,便走过去问他发生了什么事. 他看了男子一眼,用了一种平淡的语气对他说,“这就是爱”.

(平淡的人物,平淡的语气,然而包藏着相当深刻的意味)
以前老师的评语,哈哈,老师想太多了吧!

The day I learned that something out of place, may not be out of place after all

It was a warm day. I was in my bedroom reading the papers. They are going to arrive any minute now.

My mum has invited some of her friends over for a small gathering as part of the Chinese New Year celebrations. “Ding Dong!” Ah , here they come. There were 4-5 aunties and some brought their children and babies along! (to get more ang baos I suppose! Haha) With the usual formalities done and getting ang baos, I went back to my room and continue my reading, with the laughter, screaming of the kids and loud television sounds accompanying me.

After some time, I decided to go to the toilet. I passed by my mum’s bedroom and saw this cute little baby sleeping on the bed. Oh so cute! I went in and have a closer look. Then I realized, hey, how come that pillow beside the baby, and he’s not using it. Other than this out of place pillow, the bed is in a very tidy and ‘visitor welcoming pattern’.

The auntie must have accidentally shifted it la I thought. I decided to put the pillow back in place. Done, what a nice bed and a nice baby sleeping. I continued my journey to the toilet. After I am done, I happened to walk pass the bedroom again. I cannot resist going in and taking a look at the baby again. This time, his mum came in after me. I can see that she had a little shocked look on her face. She quickly took the pillow and put it back to the same spot again! I was surprised by her actions. She turned around and look at me. ‘Jialat liao’ I thought to myself. However she asked me in a nice voice if I put back the pillow. I said yes. She then calmly explained that she put the pillow beside the baby to block the baby from accidentally rolling over and falling off the bed. So the pillow served as a barrier to prevent an accident from happening!

‘Orr’ I replied. She smiled and so do I, albeit sheepishly. I took another glance at the baby and admired his look of serenity, not knowing that someone has tried to harm him or how his mum came to his rescue.

As I returned to my room, I told myself, not bad, I learned something new. That’s the day I learned that something out of place, may not be out of place after all!

Room 3-09

She was a beauty in most people’s eyes. Mine was no exception. From the 1st day I laid my eyes on her, I was totally smitten by her charm; the type of indescribable charm she emitted that made guys swarm to her like bees. I began my quest to woo her from day one.

Wait, something is not right here....

“K.C, Swee Lin, move him over to autopsy room 3-09, I’ll be there shortly. Thanks” boomed a voice. The voice seem to be coming from a distance. “Oh well what the heck” I thought.

“Eh, Swee Lin, so having a hot date tonight?” asked a male’s voice whom I presumed is K.C. “Yah la, hot date tonight, but not with you K.C!” Swee Lin replied with a mock laughter. Hmm…they seemed to be in a very relaxed mood.

“This guy sure is handsome, don’t you think so K.C?” “Yah, I must agree with you on this one Swee Lin. He looks like Tay Ping Hui, hunky built, but pity him..” Is he talking about me? Well I must attribute my good looks to my mum, the huge investment on facial care products etc…. Wait, that is not the point….

As the seconds trickled by, my worst fear began to materialize; Am I dead? I pondered for a while. My lungs are not gasping for air, I am having a good flow of oxygen around me, but then again, when you are dead, your lungs can take it easy, take it nice and slow. A sense of chillness went through my spine at this moment.

“Ah, K.C, let’s make it quick today, we are both busy people tonight. Let’s cut him up and perform an autopsy on him. Let’s see…no visible marks on his body as far as I am concerned..hmm…”

Another sense of chillness swept through my lower back and spine.

“Ah, Swee Lin, are you ready? I am going to remove the sheets on his lower body..” said K.C. “Ya lah, I know what you are thinking of K.C!” Laughter filled the room at this moment.

“Wa lau eh, he got a HUGE dick! Not bad for an Asian man today!” Swee Lin exclaimed. Hey there, I am proud of my manhood ok…6 inches long without errection, try and beat that K.C!

“Haha, ok Swee Lin, that’s enough, that’s really not the MAIN focus now” said K.C sarcastically. Hey K.C, you must be feeling inferior now man! What a 360 degree change of attitude. I am really feeling cold on my back now…it feels as though I am lying on some metal bed…Hang on, what’s that feeling..makes me feel hot…as if blood is rushing to my manhood..I can feel some rubbery thing stroking my dick..

“Alright Swee Lin, you had your ‘fun’, I am going to cut a little portion of his lower abdomen to check for any intestinal infection of some sort, you know, these things are never visible to the naked eye unless u take a look inside.”

What?! Cut me up? Hey K.C, fuck you. Can anyone pass me the hand phone or dial 999 for me? There’s an insane man here who talks about wanting to see my intestines and cutting me up and jealous of my 6 inch penis.

“HEY K.C, SWEE LIN, HANG ON! DO NOT DO ANYTHING!!” echoed a voice repeatedly. Hey, have I not heard this voice before! There was a moment of silence all around me suddenly. I hear the door being crashed open.

“He’s not dead, just paralysed! Dr Tan found a kuku spider in his haversack, poor guy, and the spider must have sneaked into his haversack when he was trekking in Mount Ophir and bit him when he was sleeping on the coach on his way back to Singapore. You all know how irritating these spiders are, not venomous but create enough toxins to knock you out and paralyse you,” came the all so familiar voice.
“ OH MY GOD, Swee Lin, Look!” gasped K.C. She was holding a fully erected penis in her hands now. My eyes were blinded momentarily by the glaring lights shinning at me as they opened slowly…..

********************

I thought I have found the love of my life in Kimberly. We dated for 1 year 2 months 3 days and oh well what the heck.

Reason for the breakup? Sexual Incompatibility. I realized I was impotent unless she was wearing rubber gloves.

Editor’s Note

1) All characters, events and dialogues are purely fictional. Any resemblance to any real life characters, events and dialogues are coincidental.

2) This idea behind this story is adapted somewhere.

3) I doubt there is such a thing called a kuku spider that resides in the wilderness of Mount Ophir.

4) Hope you enjoyed this story as much as I enjoyed writing it.

5) Not only Ang Mohs can have 6 inches long non-erected dicks.

6) Pardon some offensive languages used.

New Year, New Blog!

1st post of 2009, a bit late, but nonetheless its finally here. Decided to shift all the previous blog entries from the friendster blog to this blogspot blog. A cleaner interface and easy to read layout. Thanks to Jasmine for helping me with the setting up and the selection of this nice blog skin. (I was too lazy to do it haha)

Anyway, I hope to do a more regular update of this blog as well as the update of my story, the curse of the ancient souls part 3. Stay tuned.

(p.s: if you want your blog link to appear on my blog, just leave me a comment and I will do it hahaha)

Something which I have wrote in a moment of inspiration a couple of weeks ago. Enjoy :)

Passion of Spring

The New Year brings us lots of surprises
Which in turn makes our morale rises

The turn of the seasons to that of spring
Along with the passion that it will bring

Gone are the long hard days of winter
Where everything else seems to wither

Though the days are still long
I hope our love will remain strong

May our passion spread far and wide
And relieve everyone through this economic tide

The Curse of the Ancient Souls (2)

"Guys listen up!" exclaimed Willy excitedly in the pub, where Bobby, Harry and Yew Meng gathered every 2 to 3 days for the happy hour right after work. "What have you got this time eh? A new girlfriend?" taunted Harry. "No way man! Singapore girls are so materialistic, show them the money and they will come to you willingly. I got tired of them already." said Willy. "In addition, a friend of mine got to know of this place in Thailand, where the girls there are pretty and down to earth, and they certainly do not mind us Singaporeans to visit them for, you know what haha" said Willy. "Why don't we go to this place in Thailand for our trip this time? I think its the honour of the girls over there that we are paying them a visit haha" added Willy.

"You got to be kidding, who knows what that place is and is it really safe" said Bobby . "Don't worry, my friend had been there before and trust me, he said he never felt so good before in his entire life!" exclaimed Willy. "Well, why not? then I mean its time for a break from all the hetic work!" added Harry. Yew Meng has no objection also. "3 against 1, Bobby. As usual, majority wins!" said Willy as they cheers for another round of beer.

Within a week, they booked the 4 days 3 nights trip to Thailand but their main objective was to travel to this remote village off the east coast of Thailand, a little island called Kombinnang. Upon reaching their destination, with directions from his friend, they engaged this tour guide called Lom Bam. Lom Bam is a 70 year old man who has been a tour guide for 45 years since he was a young man. He knew Thailand inside out. Upon knowing the 4 men wanted to go to Kombinnang, he shakes his head but promised to get them there safely by a small motor boat. "Please be careful over there young men. I know why you are there as many young men like you went before. However, please remember some rules there. First, please respect the girls over there. Although they are in this line, however, they still have their dignity. Secondly, always be polite to everyone in that island. Last but not least, be responsible for your own actions." said Lom Bam seriously. Willy, Harry and Yew Meng causally agreed. Only Bobby seems to take the words seriously.

It was almost 8pm when they got there by boat. It was an hour's boat ride from the main island. At the jetty it was dimly lited. However, as they approached, there was 2 pretty girls waiting for them. "Oh wow! This is what I called B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L!" exclaimed Willy excitedly. The 2 pretty girls were the escorts that night, and they led the 4 men through some thick bushes and upon reaching a clearing, they were very surprised to see a elagant resort in front of them. Nice food and music were all around and every single girl dancing around the resort was a beauty. There were many men around as well, obviously enjoying themselves with the food and of course the girls.

Soon, Willy, Bobby, Harry and Yew Meng were immersed in the company of pretty girls, good food and music. They partied all night long till they were so exhausted and finally went back to their rooms for a rest. Willy was sure that a group of girls were eyeing him and his 3 friends all night long. He though to himself, "I must get them tomorrow night and enjoy ourselves!" Before long, the four of them were fast asleep.

When they woke up the next day, it was already 1pm. And the day was exactly five years ago...

Smoking

Why do people smoke when they know its bad for health blah blah blah...

If drugs were legal, will people go take drugs? Maybe yes, Maybe no because drugs are more deadly. Cigarette is less deadly because you will die slowly. Drugs makes you die faster. You get the point.

Why am I writing this post? Because there is someone below my room or above my room or to the left of my room that is smoking right now and as I am typing this post, I am inhaling the smoke. Freaking bastard, hope you die of lung cancer by the end of this week! Inconsiderate idiot.

The Curse of the Ancient Souls

Recall the ending from the post Story Time: Part 6.

"Well, thank you Sir, for all the information, we will seek your corporation again if need be, hope you get a good gripe on yourself. I feel for your loss too." said Bobby to Mike’s dad. "Time to write a report again, wonder what my heading will be this time" thought Bobby as he was driving back to the station. Another case closed and time for a little holiday he was yearning for the past year.

At this moment, Bobby’s handphone rang. "Hello?" answered Bobby. An air of silence hovered in Bobby’s car. He jammed brake in the middle of the expressway. Lucikly there wasn’t much cars around. Sweat broke out on Bobby’s forehead as he waited in the silence."

Thirty seconds which seemed like eternity to Bobby passed as he listened to the call. The phone went dead right after the call. Regaining his composure, Bobby drove on and went home. His mind was wandering off and on throughout the night. Many times, he woke up in cold sweat. "It can't be happening to me, 5 years had already passed" said Bobby to himself....

Bobby is thirty five years of age this year. Having exceled in his school days, he managed to study human pyschology and landed a job as a human pyschology expert in the police force. He chose to specialise in teenagers behaviour as he sees it as a catalyst for many crimes in the society. "Teenagers nowadays do not realise the consequences of their actions. Their actions are detrimental to the society and to themselves and before serious consequences set in, I have the task to help them" exclaimed Bobby to those who asked about his job. Through the years, he have seen it all. Mike's and Laura's case is not new to him.

Bobby likes to travel. He makes it a point to travel with his group of buddies every year. No matter how busy they are, they will schedule 7 to 14 days a year for travel. The group consists of Harry, Yew Meng and Willy. They met during the NS time and had since forged a very strong friendship. From Europe to US to Africa, they have been there. One common point between them is that they are all bachelors. Perhaps the world is fair afterall. All of them are professionals in their own fields. They have a good paying jobs and live an exciting life, but it seems that their fate with women has not been too good. Bobby loves his job and devote lots of time to it and in his spare time he goes travelling with his buddies. Harry is a top criminal lawyer and is very busy with his work and has no time for relationships. Yew Meng is the assistant director of the largest MNC in town and he basically slogs it out at work everyday and has little time for relaxation let alone relationships. Willy is in the entertainment industry, hosting events, tv shows and even dabble in a bit of acting. His good looks has captured the hearts of many, yet Willy is never a comitted man. He has countless girlfriends and sometimes more than 1 on a single occasion. Yet he never have to worry because all the girls come to him willingly.

It was 4am in the morning as Bobby sat up on his bed. "It has already been 5 long years and I guess this is my fate" said Bobby in a dejected voice. His eyes was fixed at a spot right in front of him. "Time has finally caught up with me" exclaimed Bobby, his eyes still fixed at a spot in front of him....

Song Lyrics

Been thinking about this for the past few days. I want to find out song lyrics which are interesting or meaningful or whatever. 1-2 lines the most and not all the lyrics.

If anyone can tell me the song titles of all the songs below, you will get a prize from me :p

1) "how can I be lost, if I got no where to go" - you will be lost if you cannot find a way to your destination. if you got no destination to begin with, how can you say you are lost? Interesting.

2) "its like heads they win, tails you gonna lose" - either way you lose. hope we don't fall into such situations in real life.

3) "he married trouble and had a courtship with a gun" - cool description

4) "No limitation, a new inspiration, a world that is free just as free as my mind" - inspiring

5) "even the best fall down sometimes, even the wrong words seem to rhyme" - nothing is perfect in this world

6) "divided we're standing, united we'll fall" - what an negative statment

7) "If a man could be two places at one time, I'd be with you. Tomorrow and today, beside you all the way." - the lyrics is sweet! dead giveaway on the song title though haha

8 "give me a job, the one I haven't got" - suggestive haha and rhymes too

9) "this silly game of love, you play you win, only to lose" - another negative statment

10) "I know you think that love is the way you make it, so I don't wanna be there when you decide to break it" - believe in love always

Spring Cleaning Day

A well rested weekend. It has been a very long time since I have a long weekend. (Fri, Sat, Sun) Anyway I will be having long weekends almost every week from now till the end of the year. This is the result of not having time to clear leaves for this present year. Not to mention my 16days reservist coming very soon in November. oh well.

Managed to do some spring cleaning today. Just a couple of days ago, I cleared some old clothes. My wardrobe is getthing lesser and neater. I don't have much clothes to begin with anyway. I was tidying the top part of my cupboard and I am surprised to see I still have so much University notes that I still keep. In an instance, I packed all up in a bundle and put it into a big plastic bag, ready to throw away. I think the notes are useless to me now anyway. haha

Afterwhich, I threw away some old PC hardware boxes, don't know why I keep them for so long. However, I still have 3 old harddisk and 2 old cd roms. Wanted to scan or format the harddisk before I dispose of them. haha Do not want any Edison scandal :P I need to find a proper place to dispose of them. I believe there are some places which help dispose of computer parts. It is extremely harmful to the environment to dispose of such things as they contain lead I think.

Afterwhich, I rearrange my cupboard and save for a few changes in the arrangment, I think it looked the same, even after I threw away so many things. I should think my room is very neat and clean. That's how I like my room to be. I don't have many things to start with anyway.

Hmm, when I am in the mood again, I will throw away even more things! haha

MC day

Friendster blog has changed! I think its about time. Now the interface is cleaner and brighter. And with a white background, that's makes reading easier :)

Anyway woke up this morning not feeling too good so went to Bukit Gombak 24hr clinic to see a doc. Reached there, was told it would be a 2 hr wait! What the heck! I registered nonetheless and went home, telling myself I will be back in another 1 hour or so. What a waste of time.

Went home and checked the list of clinics under Parkway group and realised there is 1 clinic at railway mall, which is just opposite my house, a 5 mins walk! I went out again and went to this clinic, didn't know there was a clinic at railway mall. haha. I thought it would be ulu but turns out there are around 5 people inside already. I still think it will be faster than the 2 hours I have to wait at Bukit Gombak clinic. Thus, I waited for around 35mins but the time was well spent reading my reader's digest which I brought there. Got my MC and went home to rest.

Basically slept through the whole afternoon till the heat became unbearable and I woke up. Was feeling groggy so just lied on my bed. After dinner, I cannot take it anymore so the air con was turned on. I sort of tidied my room and threw away some stuffs. Afterwhich, I counted my coins I collected and packed it nicely into various bags according to denominations to be given to my auntie, who owns a shop and the coins will come in handy. Of course, in exchange for cash. haha

Hope I will recover soon though. Its not often that I fall sick and I certainly don't like the feeling. I also hope all of you out there will stay healthy always. But words with no actions is of no use. So eat healthy and start to exercise!

Remember 2 servings of fruits and veggies a day and plenty of fluids - Doctor Woo. hahaha

Near Misses

What are your near misses in life? In near misses, I mean near misses with death. I had my fair share of near misses in my life.

As a young boy, I was hyper active. Running and jumping around. When I was quite young, could not remember how young though, I was running around my grandma's house. You know those 3 to 4 steps that leads to the door of a HDB flat. I jumped down the steps, missed and fell. My forehead at the left eyebrow level hit the edge of a metal tin placed on the side on the floor. Result: 7-8 stiches and a permanant scarring. My mum said I was almost blinded.

When I was in primary school, I lived in Taman Jurong. One night, I was at a stationary shop located at the 2nd level of some building. After I was done, instead of taking the stairs down, I walked to the side of the building and took a spiral walkway down. (for those handicapped). I still remembered. Less than 5 steps I took, a cold hard red brick fell in front of me and was smashed into pieces. I walked on. What if I walked slightly faster that night?

Secondary school time. Crossing the junction to my school at Clementi. As the green man appears, I am sure it was at least 3 seconds as I took my 1st step out of the road. A bus from the interchange came charging out and made a left turn. If I was in a rush, I would have quickly crossed the road once the green man came on. Oh well.

Stupid incident. I was sleeping one night. In the middle of the night, I had an urge to go to the toilet. I do not know why, I had a hard time dragging myself out of bed. As I walked in the darkness, I do not know why I was so tired. After taking a few steps and was near my bedroom door, I FELL ASLEEP! I remembered I was like KO. Switched off for 1 second and I fell down. My head hit the corner of the cupboard beside my bedroom door. That woke my parents and myself up. I was in pain and groaning, clutching my head. Damn painful I tell you. As my parents switched on the lights, I slowly took off my hand and check if there was any blood. And truly enough, like a scene straight out of the movies, my whole hand was DRENCHED in blood. I even saw a few drops of bloods dripped on the floor. Took me a while to clean up and apply medication. What if I fell and hit somewhere else or serious complication sets in?

Last year, I was driving along Bukit Batok one night. The road was quite deserted. Someone was with me, I do not remember who though. As I cruised through the road, that someone told me watch out as there was an Indian man jay walking across the road in the middle of nowhere. I remember telling that someone to relax, I saw him. In actual fact, I did not even notice cause you know, it was dark and he was an Indian. Period. Luckily he walked across quite quickly. It was only when I drove past that man that I realised what if I had driven faster or he had walked slowly across?

Somewhere last year or this year, I was in a bus home. Near my home already, I woke up from a sleep. Still in a sleepy mode and before I knew it, there was quite an impact hitting the bus 2 seats behind me and on the same side where I was sitting. The person beside me literally got thrown out of her seat. A car had smashed into the bus, another car followed suit. One of the car burst into flames at the front. There was smoke. People was rushing to get off the bus, fearing the flaming car beside it could explode anytime. They keep pushing one another including me. What if one person tripped and get trampled on? What if the flaming car really exploded?

One fine afternoon this year, I was driving home from Bukit Gombak. Just in front of the MRT station. There was some road works in the middle of the road, traffic was a bit slow. Red light at the crossing. People just starting to cross the road. I was slowing down nearing the traffic lights. As I saw a bus in front, and there was no cars at the right lane, I slowly filter to the right lane. I was very slow as I took my time. Out of nowhere, 2 kids cut in front of my car and from my observation, they are actually looking out for traffic before crossing! I had a shock of my life when they decided to cross even though I was moving slowly to the right lane. They dashed across in front of my car and if I had not braked fast enough, I would have hit them. They are trying to cross the road. Just a few more steps ahead, they can cross from the green man at the junction. I do not know why they can't bother to cross safely. If I hit them, who's fault will it be I wonder.

All the near misses for me may be nothing compared to what others have been through. I was thinking what if somehow a near miss becomes a hit? Either way, my life will be affected and I definitely do not want this to happen. There are still so many things in life to discover and enjoy.

A little sharing of the near misses I had. What's yours?

Blue Monday

A blue start to the week today. Didn't know what came over me this morning at work. Rarely do I feel that I am not able to handle the things that needs to be done. Today is the day I felt that.

Its hard to describe that feeling. When I thought about the things that I have to do, the things that need to be done and the things that have not been done, I was overwhelmed. I gave up. Momentarily.

Then I received an email from a friend. It came at the right time. A very long PDF file for reading. Those kind of motivational stuff we have heard countless times. I skimed half of it and this 2 particular statments makes sense, at least to me.

'We are winners, not whiners'

'Don't take it personal, they are just part of the negativity that exists in the world'

Well, I thought about it and came to a conclusion that I am whining (about all the work) and taking it a little too personal for some things that affected my vision.

I took a deep breath and sorten out my thoughts. Things became better immediately. I hope this momemtum will continue to rise as the week goes by. :)

Thoughts

Sometimes I feel that if something bad or unpleasant happens to somebody around you, and you are not able to do anything to help, you will feel sad and bad.

Now think if it is not just somebody, but the people you really care about and you are not able to do anything to help, you will feel many times as sad and as bad.

To the people out there, its not the end of the world. When all things goes wrong, there are bound to be some rights. Say a prayer and let nature do the rest.

Get some sleep, relax and take many deep breaths. Tomorrow is another brand new day. Prepare for it well and you will be able to conquer it well.

My heart goes out to all the people I care about.

Whirlwind 3 days

It has been a whirlwind for the past 3 days. Back to reality today though. =_=

Finally get to go KTV with my collegues and ex-collegue last Fri. It was an enjoyable session with lots of photo taking going on and fooling around. haha Too bad my camera ran out of battery before I can even take much photos, but nevertheless, cams from two other friends more than made up for it :) Hope to have such sessions every now and then in the future!

Saturday morning managed to get up at 830am and took a cab for a soccer session at St Wilfred's. Nice weather and a good workout. Pity took a knock on my thigh and the after effects were painful. So for the rest of the Saturday, I could not walk properly. haha slept through the afternoon and played some games, chatted on MSN and finally watched ch 8 movies till 2 am plus, pity I could not finish watching the ch 8 movie, seems quite nice, but my eyes made their own decisions and decided to shut.

Sun morning. Downtown East, Escape themepark at 11am. Had a quick brunch at White Sands before I head on down there. 1st time I been there and quite dissapointing la, though I do not have much expectations in the 1st place. A total of THREE rides were under maintanance and at the end of the day, I was offered complimentary tickets to return again with a 3 mths validity. The Go Kart was quite fun and I think it was the best ride of all. The Inverter was cool too spinning you 360 degrees. However as the day goes by, I feel a bit dizzy by all the other rides which only goes spining round and round. Put me on a roller coaster and I will not feel dizzy. Its those rides that is not exiciting but only keep on spinning round and round that is making me dizzy.

Left the place at around 5pm and had dinner at the newly opened EHUB. There was a big ferris wheel inside the EHUB and at night, the lights are nice when viewed through the glass panels. Had dinner at BBQ Chicken restuarant, which serves chicken fried in olive oil. I still think KFC is nicer though. HAHAHA. Afterwhich, another long journey home and reached home at around 930pm. After watching my favorite show at the moment, pushing daisies, off to bed and prepared for another long week at work ahead!

The weekend come and go so fast this wkend. Hopefully this weekend, I get to have more rest :) Just watched Saw 4 on my computer on a Mon evening. Gosh, I am getting dizzy again!

Can't believe this series never ends. Part 5 coming soon! But Escape Themepark, even with the complimentary tickets given to me, I will not be going back so soon again.

Story Time: Part 6

Recap the ending from part 5: "Let's FLY!" said Laura. Mike looked at Laura, lost of words for that moment or two. But soon, the worried look on his face turned into a smile and he replied, "Sure!" Laura held Mike's hand tightly and they flew to a place where lovers are destined to be together. Forever and ever. Eternally.

"Mdm, do you know about your daughter's condition at all?" asked one of the many policemen in Laura's apartment. Laura's mother was sobbing and too distraught for words. Her dad was trying to get to gripes what just happened. "If only we had known about her condition sooner and try to understand her better.." mumbled her father in a subdued voice. Strangly enough, the sight of two lost souls locked in a tight embrace on the cold and hard concrete floors set rumours running.

Youth nowadays face a host of pressures ranging from intense academic competitions to relationship commitments. Often, they feel suffocated by demands that they are unable to fulfil, whether self imposed or not. Once these limits are broken, they will be sucked into a phenomenon commonly know as angst. Often, self mutilation is a physical outlet for emotional pain. A further outlet is on the cold concrete floor, where Laura chose in the end.

Over at Mike's apartment, Mike's parents seemed more composed at the news. "Sir, do you mind if we do a search of Mike's room?" asked Bobby, the expert teenage suicide specialist from the police force. Mike's dad gave the go ahead motion. Trained in human pyschology in school, and the years of experience in the field of teenage suicide, Bobby has seen it all. "Hmm, what's this?" Bobby asked his partner. In his hands were bottles of haloperidol and perphenazine and a specialist prescribtion. He knew it, no doubt about it. Mike was suffering from schizophrenia. It a cluster of symptoms that typically includes delusions, hallucinations, disordered thinking, and emotional unresponsiveness.

Upon seeing that the detective has found out about Mike's condition, his dad stood up and walked over. "Mike has this condition since he was young. He always told us about his imaginary friend, Tim. We were concerned about his condition yet he was too young to understand. Thus, we mix those medicine in his food last time to curb his hallucination" explained Mike's dad.

Then a good chance came when Mike met with an accident. As he was crossing the road, a passer-by managed to push him away in a nick of time as the car dashed through a red light. Mike was only scratched and the passer-by was alright. In the hospital, when Mike was unconscious, the doctor told his parents that patients suffering from schizophrenia will tend to forget things for a while after a sudden impact to the body. Thus, when Mike awoke, he had no memories of Tim momentarily. Mike's parents also did not mention anything since then, but still secretly added the medicine to his food. However, things were not that rosy when Mike grew up. Apprantly, the voice of Tim grew stronger and stronger everyday when he was a teenager and one fine day, he stumbled across the medical report and prescriptions in his parents room when he was trying to find his jacket.

Mike was stunned that he had schizophrenia. He began to research on his own secretly and learnt that it cannot be cured. He kept what he knew from his parents and did not take the medicine that was mixed in his food. His condition worsen till he met Laura, who provided a temporarily relief for him. However, good things always come to an end and sadly, the two poor souls are now reunited in a place far far away, away from all the troubles. They are in a place they belong, forever and eternally.

"Well, thank you Sir, for all the information, we will seek your corporation again if need be, hope you get a good gripe on yourself. I feel for your loss too." said Bobby to Mike's dad. "Time to write a report again, wonder what my heading will be this time" thought Bobby as he was driving back to the station. Another case closed and time for a little holiday he was yearning for the past year.

At this moment, Bobby's handphone rang. "Hello?" answered Bobby. An air of silence hovered in Bobby's car. He jammed brake in the middle of the expressway. Lucikly there wasn't much cars around. Sweat broke out on Bobby's forehead as he waited in the silence. But then again, this will be told in another story........

Blind or simply don't bother?

Something very interesting happened this morning on my way to work and I simply have to pen it down. Peak hour at Bukit Batok Mrt station control, I walked towards the gantry. Normally, there are 3 gantries on the right side.

The gantries are in the order say 1, 2 and 3. Gantry 1 is the big one, where commuters can to and fro, gantry 2 is for entering and gantry 3 is for outgoing commuters. However, this morning, when I was approaching the gantries, there was a queue of at least 10 people at gantry 2. I was quite surprised. Seems that someone's card got problem, thus the queue. Initially I joined the queue but just after 3 seconds, I took a look at gantry 1 and saw it was marked with a X, which means no entry. Then I glanced at gantry 3, instead of the usual X, today it was the green tick and yet no one was using that!

I stride forward, pass the 10 people or so at gantry 2 and place my EZ link card at gantry 3. I entered without a hassle. This makes me wonder if this had been going on the whole morning!

Are the people blind or simply don't bother to check? As my friend said, Mondays mornings, most people are still in auto pilot mode. Perhaps she is right. hahaha

Clicking Sound of Death

When I switched on my computer yesterday morning, it was fine until I start to hear some clicking sound. Well this had been going on for couple of weeks now but I sort of ignored it. Then it happened! My computer suddenly hanged and I restarted it. Then it was all gone. Cannot power up, loud clicking sounds... and my worst fear was realised. My harddisk has crashed... The 1st time it happened in my life! Goodness me.

All the times my harddisk failed was because it was corrupted and the remedy is very simple. Buy a new harddisk, and use the corrupted one as a 2nd slave harddisk to transfer all necessary data then do a format of this old harddisk and it will be as good as new. However this time, the harddisk crashed. 'Clicking Sound of Death' is the term coined on online articles and it will cost lots to recover anything from the harddisk. (I have sent a request and asked for a quote from data recovery companies just for fun and I expect it to cost no less than $500 or $1000 because its a physical failure instead of a logical failure)

Haiz, actually it was due to my 2 mistakes. 1st, when the clicking sound surfaced a couple of weeks ago, I already got a bad feeling. However due to my poor error of misjudgement, I thought it was the 2nd harddisk that was giving problems! Therefore I backup all my MP3s in that 2nd harddisk first. That took me a couple of hours and 5 DVDs in all. If I have known it was my main harddisk that was giving problems, I would have backup my OUTLOOK address book, email messages and the numerous photos in my main drive first.

Second mistake: I procastinated. I actually wanted to backup these files yesterday but before I can even do anything, my com hanged and the rest was history. I had 2 weeks to backup and yet all I did was to backup my MP3s and my main installers for various programs. No point crying over spilt milk now.

I lost all my more recent photos from 2007 to now (ARGH!, memories!), my email address book (small argh!, because I got an old backup so the damage is not too great), my emails (ARGH! kept lots of emails from various important sites etc, all gone), my Favorite folder for IE7.0, (small argh!, all the websites I frequent are all gone, have to slowly look for it again if I remember. haha)

Bought a new harddisk, setup already and now my computer is up and running again but my main drive seems so empty and with the original windows XP wallpaper. haha oh well, please remember to back up often and not become like me. You won round 1, you clicking sound of death! but you can never take me down just like that. I will be ready for you next time! hahaha

CDs and more CDs

Just bought a new mini hi fi on Sunday. Good deal only $129. Anyway its the last set so I just take it. Decent sound quality. Reason why I buy is because my old radio's cd player is spoilt. Last Friday night, wanted to enjoy some music before I sleep but when I tried to play my CDs, it won't work.

From my secondary school days to now, I have bought so many CDs and they are all sitting around in my room, waiting to be reopened and be heard again. Now that I have my new Hi Fi, I have been playing 1 CD per night. Really brings back memories.

Have listened to 3 CDs so far. 1st being 優客李林, a chinese group of the 90s. I love their songs, classics! Who can forget their songs like 認錯﹐ 輸了你﹐ 贏了世界又如何﹐少年遊 etc? These are evergreen songs and ask anyone at random and they will definitely have heard of 認錯.

2nd CD I listened to is of course from my favourite Scorpions. 1996 album, can you believe it, titled 'Pure Instinct'. Not their best album but nevertheless a good CD to listen to with the powerful rock ballads 'You and I' and 'When you came into my life'.

3rd CD which I just listened today is Michael Learns to Rock Greatest Hits. An absolute hit in my secondary school days. Tell me at that time, who have NOT heard of '25 minutes' or 'Thats why you go away'? Those who have not heard of those 2 songs ought to be shot! hahaha I think every single song on that album is a classic.

As I am typing this, I have already played my 2nd CD of the night, NOW THAT'S WHAT I CALLED MUSIC 3, which I think is the best compilation of the series. No Doubt's Don't Speak, R Kelly's I believe I can fly and Sheryl Crow's If it makes you happy just to name a few. Classics after classics.

I think these songs of the past really have an impact on me. You do not forget the songs even after 10, 15 years on. The songs nowadays do not really have any lasting impact. However, there are still good songs around nowadays though, maybe in another 10 to 15 years will we know whether they will still be remembered or not.

I shall go to bed now, falling asleep to the sound of Lovefool, by the Cardigans, a cute song.

'Don't you wish your girlfriend was hot like me...' Seriously, I DO NOT wish my girlfriend to be like you. hahaha you get my point. :P

Meaningful

A Message by George Carlin:

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbour. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again. Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER: Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

George Carlin

Rest in Peace, Boy

Woke up this morning and went to feed my 2 hamsters. As I opened the cage of one of them to put fresh food inside, the usual rushing out of my hamster to eat the food did not happen. I shook the little house inside the cage where the hamster like to hide in and also no movement. I feared the worst. I opened the house and saw my poor hamster dead. Sadness overwhelms me.

Just last night, I was playing with it for a little while, it was still trying to get out of the cage but I did not allow it. I just teased it and switched off the lights and off to bed. And that was the last time I see it alive. Roughly 2 years and 1 month it had been with me, occasionally biting me but also bringing me some laughter. Average life span of a hamster 2-3 years, I guess its life was well lived.

Hope you died peacefully, when I found you inside the little house, cuddled in a corner, surrounded by tissue paper, I couldn't help but feel sad and my mood for the day was gone. You are afterall my first live pet I personally reared.

Rest in Peace, Boy

愛一個人要先了解對方的心

女生的心

常常因為你的小體貼而感動，
如果你一直對我好，
我可能就會喜歡你。

女生的感情很豐富，
喜歡你的我，
會毫不保留的付出，
天真的認為有天你就會懂。

女生的心倔強，
總希望你先說，
如果你也猶豫不決，
或許我們就這樣錯過，
再來後悔為何當初不說。

男生的心

男生的心很脆弱，
常常因為你的小動作而心碎，
如果你一直若即若離，
我怎麼敢喜歡你

男生的心思很繼密，
喜歡你的我，
會不計一切的付出，
單純的以為你會懂的珍惜。

男生的愛很不容易說出口，
因為一旦說出口，
或許再也沒有或許了，
彼此悲傷見面真的很不好愛。

男生的心很懦弱，
總怕傷心而緊開雙唇，
或許一打開雙唇盡吐心語後，
就會後悔當初為何不乖乖沉靜在那片刻的幸福中...

Never knew before I met you
Angels do exist
Now I know
Angels do exist

Hamster went AWOL

It was the year of the RAT and its the public holiday I enjoyed the most. Yes that's right. It is Chinese New Year. It falls on the 7th of Feb this year. Apart from the long weekend, the goodies are what I enjoyed. Also don't forget the Ang Baos. I still don't feel ashamed receiving them as yet. haha

The recent escape of the JI terrorist leader Mas Selamat has triggered the idea of this little post. It reminds me of what my hamster did on the 1st day of the Chinese New Year. I have 2 hamsters and they live in seperate cages due to the fact that they are of different breed and cannot live together. On the morning of the CNY, I fed them extra helping of food along with cheese to celebrate the year of the RAT. haha. After that, I went visiting and back at home in the afternoon. I had a nap soon and woke up ard 5pm that day. I went to check on my hamsters.

Imagine the shock I got when I realised one of the cages is opened and the hamster is gone. "Shit!" I shouted. I cannot remember if its me who did not shut the cage properly when I fed them in the morning. Nevertheless, this sparked a frenzy rat-hunt all around the house. Whistling and knocking on the furnitures did not get any response. I was prepared for the worst. The hamster accidentally dropped into the waterhole in the toilet and drowned. Another bad scenario was that in the night, it was running around the house and when I go to the toilet, I stepped on it accidentally. Argh.. bad thoughts. After around half an hour of searching I gave up. I still had some hope though. I resumed searching later in the night but to no avail. I told myself that if the hamster was not found by Sunday, I would assume its dead and keep the cage. But I still did not give up.

The next day, I started searching again. I am in disbelief as I have basically covered every single corner and hole in my house and still I cannot find it. There is only 1 possibility. It had dropped into the water hole in the toilet. Other than this, I cannot visualise anywhere else it can be hiding. On the Saturday, I am still searching but hopes are dimming. I already started to tell myself to clear the cage the next day, Sunday.

Irony of this is that it's the year of the Rat and many people are rushing to buy hamsters as a sign of good luck. But my hamster went AWOL on the 1st day of Chinese New Year. If it died, what a sad ending. This was not part of the script!

Sunday morning. I was awoken at around 730am by my mum. She shouted to me, 'Come catch your hamster, it's in my room!' I jumped out of bed and was wide awake. This is the 1st time I can be jumping out of bed so wide awake on a lazy Sunday morning at 730am!! haha I went to my mum's room and indeed, the hamster was running across the floor. I caught it and brought it back to the cage. Oh my god! I have all but given up hope of finding it and here it came back. By itself nevertheless.

Come think of it, the hamster had gone AWOL for around 3 days. I was thinking how it can survive with no water. They can store a lot of food in their cheek but without water? Well, I guess 3 days without water is still ok for them. I believed it was hiding in the toilet of my mum's room. There is a cabinet built below the basin and stored lots of stuffs. I did search there a few times but did not notice it. Maybe I did not do a complete check. At the end of it all, I was glad that the hamster was well and alive and yes, I never forget to close the cage again and I put a little magazine as a weight on top of the cage to prevent anymore accidents from happening.

Linking back to the escaped terrorist, it was like he is hiding somewhere. Unless he is out of the country, the possiblilty of him exposing himself gets greater by the day. Hope he will get flushed out soon. My hamster went AWOL for 3 days and exposed itself. Mas Selamat went AWOL for 2 weeks and counting already. Is it time for him to expose himself? If he was caught, I will put him in a cage and lock it up. And yes, add a pile of magazines on top of the cage to prevent his escape. hahaha

Story Time: Part 5

Mike's and Laura's secret relationship grew as the days goes by. They were in their own world. Parents and results doesn't mean anything to them anymore. They only knew they want each other's company every single day, forever and ever. It is a kind of special bond between 2 human beings, spiritually and physically.

Mike managed to get through his 2nd year with a pass in all his subjects. Laura, as usual, scored straights A's again and was in the Dean's list. However, all that was not important. The bond between them was the best thing that could happen to them right now, right at this moment.

"I love you darling, you are the best thing that could happen to me now" whispered Mike into Laura's ears. Laura cuddled closer and hugged Mike tightly. "I love you too. Would you do anything for me then?" teased Laura. "Yes of course darling, you wish is my command" exclaimed Mike. Laura was beaming with joy and kissed Mike. Soon after, the two lovers fell asleep in each other's warm caress after a physical bonding session.

"Mike, I miss you..I am so lonely here. Would you come and join me? We can talk to one another for days and night." For a moment, Mike thought he had heard Tim's voice calling out to him. It was so surreal. The tiredness got the better of him and he fell asleep again.

Things took a wrong turn soon after. Laura's parents was already beginning to suspect their daughter had a relationship outside and it was not what they desired. They want her to study and focus 100%. They want her to get perfect grades, secure a perfect top job and be a top woman in the working industry. In other words, they had everything planned out for her. They had planned her life.

Laura's parents hired a PI for investigate their daughter. Soon the secret love was discovered. Tempers flared, emotions ruined, sanity hangs on a thin line. Laura wept and ran out from her room. She ran and ran. Run away from home, run away from them. Run to me darling. I love you. Laura ran to Mike's apartment that day. Mike was also devasted as the secret love was ruined by their parents. His own parents also forbade the relationship. He felt so lost. Facing him at this moment was another lost soul, with blood shot eyes and tears streaming down from her face. They embraced.

"Mike, I can't take it anymore." sobbed Laura as she hugged Mike. He understood. He knew it all. "Dear, you said you would do anything for me right?" said Laura, as she looked into Mike's eyes. "Yes dear, anything. I will never say anything that I don't mean to. I love you forever and ever." replied Mike. "Dear, I love you forever too. I have an idea. Let's get away from all this; we can be together forever and ever. No one is to ruin our secret love." whispered Laura. Mike looked at her and smiled. It seemed that he was getting closer. Closer to being with the one he loved, and the one he once loved (as a friend in Tim).

Laura's parent was shocked to discover the mess in Laura's room. Bloodstains everywhere, the pens, razors and bandages were strewn on the floor. A trail of blood trickled all the way to the door. They panicked and immediately called the cops. Mike certainly did not notice the blood on Laura's wrist, nor the blood soaked T shirt he was wearing as Laura hugged him. Laura did not bandaged her wounds today as she knew she never have to again.

"Let's FLY!" said Laura. Mike looked at Laura, lost of words for that moment or two. But soon, the worried look on his face turned into a smile and he replied, "Sure!" Laura held Mike's hand tightly and they flew to a place where lovers are destined to be together. Forever and ever. Eternally.

(Final part 6 will be coming soon.)

How Beautiful Life Can Be =)

Take a stroll down the park in the early morning. Enjoy the cool breeze and the laughter of children having lots of fun at the playground. Relaxing.

Take a stroll down the beach in the early morning. Enjoy the empty surroundings with only the sound of waves to accompany you. Comforting.

Hold the hands of a loved one and go to a place where many different flowers bloom. Enjoy the spectular view of nature. Heart Warming.

Grow old with the one I love. Share our joy and woes and support one another when we are too weak to stand on our own. Loving.

To do that before I die. No Regrets.

How beautiful life can be =)

2008 - New Start, New Challenges, New Expectations

Once again, another year has passed. Welcome 2008 where I can expect new challenges, new expectations and a new start. Hope all goes well for me this year. Another moment of inspiration below. Happy New Year to all! :)

I Rather

I rather you don’t see
I rather you don’t listen
I rather you don’t smile
I rather you don’t reply

I rather you don’t care about me
Than to hurt me
I rather I don’t care about you
Than to silently do

I rather words to be so direct
Than to read between the lines
I rather I can have eight legs
Than to get stuck in a web of lies

I rather to be slaying demons
Than to be fighting them within
I rather wield King Arthur’s Excalibur
Than to yield to Aphrodite’s charms

I rather not to be blind
So that I can see the signs
But at the end of it all
All I can do is to breathe a sigh

The irony of it all
Is meant for you to see
Thank you
I Thank you
But I rather

Story Time: Part 4

Feb 14th 2006, Mike was 23 then. He was 2nd year student at the local university. He was not really active in the school activities but this year was different. He had to take part in some activities in order to earn points for him to stay in the hostel. If he did not have enough points, he will be kicked out of his hostel. Reluctantly, his hall mates and he organized this year’s orientation program. ‘Come on, Mike, don’t pull such a long face, there will be lots of hot girls coming this year’ exclaimed one of his hall mate. On the day of the orientation, the usual ice breakers games started the program off. As the day goes on, Mike was involved in a game that tests the stability of the hand and balance. He had to walk with 1 foot tied together with a freshie while balancing a spoon with an egg on it. He had to walk 10 meters and place the egg unbroken into a bowl. As he was only 1 meter away from the target, he heard a voice. It sounded like Tim. The second of hesitation made him trip over his partner’s leg and caused both of them to fall. The girl fell on top of him and the egg got squashed in between them. It became a major embarrassment for them at that moment in time. Quickly they got up and went to wash up. Moments later, they met on the corridor of the hostel. ‘Hey I am real sorry for that slip up’, Mike apologized profusely. The freshie replied, ‘Its okay, it was just an accident but it was real fun, don’t you think? By the way, I am Laura. You are?’

It is strange that sometimes love is really at first sight. Mike had never seen such a sweet girl smiling at him. Laura liked the look of silliness on that boy’s face. Soon enough, they were always hanging out together in school, doing tutorials together, having lunch or simply chit chatting. Their affection for one another soon developed into something much deeper and just 2 months later, they were seen holding hands in school. Mike likes to give Laura little gifts and notes to make sure she knows he is thinking of her and missing her every single day. Laura really likes the attention being showered on her by Mike. If only her parents could do that. Their love grew deeper day after day and soon, late nights out together is very normal to them. When their parents asked, they just answered that they are having extra classes in school and doing projects and stuffs. Their parents did not suspect anything at all initially as they knew the tough life of being an undergrad.

As the months goes by, they spent almost their entire free time together. The honeymoon period of their relationship was really simple and sweet. However, they began to neglect their studies. The 1st term examinations came and went. Mike flunked 2 out of his 5 subjects and felt sad. His parents were disappointed in him. They were afraid Mike had not gotten over Tim’s unfortunate incident and somehow it affected him. Laura, being a gifted child, had no problems with the 1st year exams and got 4A+ but unfortunately, got a B+ for an elective subject. Her parents were mad, real mad. B+ is considered a bad result and they chided Laura for that. Laura cried and sat down and thought about it, ‘Are results that important? Why can’t they show me the care and concern Mike gave me?’ After drying her tears, Laura looked into the mirror. Her face was covered in blood. She smiled and wiped away the blood from the razors and went to wash up and bandaged her wrist.

Story Time: Part 3

Feb 14th 2005. It was a rainy afternoon. Mike and Tim met up to have lunch as they always do every other day. There are times when Mike does not see Tim that often, but when they do, they talk like long lost friends. Although Tim did not make it to university, he eventually signed on to the Air Force hoping to be a pilot one day. His dream was to fly around the world. After lunch, they were heading to their favourite cinema for a movie. As it was a rainy day and they did not have any umbrella, they waited at a shelter for the green man at a cross junction. When it came, they dashed across the road. To the horror of many people around the junction, a car did not managed to stop in time and was heading straight at Mike as he was dashing across the road. A hand pushed Mike away in the nick of time. The last thing Mike heard was a loud boom before he lost consciousness.

When Mike woke up, he was surrounded by his mum and dad as well as a few of his relatives. He felt his leg bandaged up but it feel alright. His parents told him that his was only slightly injured on his left leg as he was pushed away from the car just in time. Mike was worried. He asked, ‘Where is Tim? Is he okay, did he save me?’ He was getting real worried. His parents and relatives whispered among themselves. After a few minutes, his dad told him firmly, ‘Tim saved you and he got hit by the car instead and was killed instantly.’ Mike was devastated by the news of the death of his best friend. He started to weep uncontrollably. He knew he was the cause of Tim’s death though his parents keep reminding him that it was just an accident and no one wanted that to happen either.

One fine day, Laura opened her drawer and took out a cute little jewellery box. She opened it and smiled to herself. ‘What should she use today?’ she though to herself. She peeked into the box. Inside were pieces of razor, sharp pencil leads, needles and a bottle of antiseptic lotion. She looked at her arm and saw some scars on it. She decided to let them heal a bit more before playing with the items again. Her parents were out working as usual, but not before handing her a hectic schedule of the day. Normally, Laura would dread seeing that schedule. However, recently, she accepted the schedule with a smile on her face and even bid farewell to her parents, wishing them to have a nice day at work. She had been behaving like this ever since she found a new hobby.

Suddenly, she thought of a new idea. She went to the fridge, filled up a big bowl with ice, and immersed her hands into it. She felt good, real good. First the coldness, then the numbness, and finally to a certain extend, frostbite. You know when ice stick to your hand, its painful to remove. To Laura, the feeling was pure joy. After a good 20 minutes of that, she slowly removed the ice that was stuck to her hand. A bit of flesh was torn off, but Laura couldn’t care less. She washed up, applied some antiseptic lotion and continued with her hectic schedule for the day. Her parents did not know of her new found hobbies and the hobbies was what kept Laura sane from that demanding schedule. She managed to enroll in the university after coming out in the top 10% of the college cohort as expected by many. She got into the same course as Mike. The only difference is that Mike was already a 2nd year student and Laura was a still a freshie. They first met on orientation day.

Random Post

Soul Behind The Face
Music: Rudolf SchenkerLyrics: Klaus Meine

Would you care for me if I was deaf and blind
Would you hear my voice if I was always quiet
Would you hold my hand if I was going to fall
Would you cry for me would you know my name at all

Would you be there if I was on the ground
Would you be my friend if no one was around
Would you hold me close if I was in the cold
Would you pray for me would you know my name at all

Would you care would you be there
For the soul behind the face
Would you love me for what I am

Would you care would you be there
For the soul behind the face
Would you love me for what I am

Would you care would you be there
For the soul behind the face
Would you love me for what I am

Would you care would you be there
For the soul behind the face
Would you love me for what I am
Would you love me for what I am
Would you love me for what I am
Would you love me for what I am

Just a random post. Storytime Part 3 will be out shortly :)

Story Time: Part 2

Feb 14th 1990, Mike was seven years old then. He was a bubbly boy whom everyone loved. Whenever he visited his relatives, he would greet them very politely and gave them his biggest smile. The smile alone will melt many hearts. It was also when he was seven, he got to know a boy name Tim. Tim was a shy boy and rarely speaks. One fine day, as Mike was returning home from school, he saw Tim alone at the playground. He knew they were from the same school and he felt a special affinity to Tim the very moment he saw him. He approached Tim and offered to play with him. As it was the case for many children, the ice was broken very quickly and within minutes, they were playing the swings and merry go round in the playground. When it was time to go home, Mike bided Tim goodbye. Strangely enough, Tim left without a word. For the next one week, Mike did not see Tim in school. He wondered why but was too busy with his own studies to care.

It was after a week that Mike saw more of Tim in school and around his neighbourhood. He approached Tim again and asked him what happened to him. Tim replied saying he was sick but was well again. ‘Let’s go play!’ exclaimed Tim with a big smile on his face. From that day onwards, Mike became very good friends with Tim and their friendship would last for the many years to come. Tim would usually come to Mike’s place to chat with him but would often do that when Mike’s parents are out. They spoke about many things. However, when Mike asked Tim about his family and stuff like that, Tim would always reply saying ‘please do not ask me that, I don’t really wish to speak about my background, I hope you can understand. If the time is right to let you know, I will ok?’ Being a sensible boy, Mike understood and did not probe further. Both of them grew up and went to the same secondary school and after to poly. Mike made it through to university but Tim did not. However they are still very good buddies after all these years. Well, good things don’t last and what happened in 2005 when they were 22 years of age and with a bright future ahead of them changed Mike’s life forever.

Feb 14th 1990, Laura was a bright six year old girl. She was identified having a high IQ at an early age and was placed in a special program to develop her gift. Her parents were very proud of her and she is the envy of her many relatives. Laura spoke fluently for a six year old and can play the piano really well at such a tender age. As she grew up and became more sensible to the world around her, she realized that actually, having a gift is not a very good thing after all. Every day, she mixes with people having the same gift as her and they do not really communicate well with one another. It was like everyone is trying to outdo one another to be the best in class. She do not have any time to socialize and make new friends as her daily schedule was jammed packed with activities and she hardly have time even to watch the TV or go shopping like most other teenagers. Although she was used to this dreaded routine everyday, a part of her still yearned to be just like a normal teenager, go on shopping trips with friends, chatting on the phone, watching TV and go on dates etc.

When Laura was 15, she began to feel depressed over her life and cruel schedule. She felt like her mind was going to explode and she really wanted to escape, to free herself from the world. However, she was afraid that her parents would be worried and she herself would feel guilty if she ran away. She virtually became a slave to her punishing schedule and every morning, she felt like she was a robot, repeating her routine of activities over and over again. One day, while cutting an apple, she accidentally cut herself. She did not feel the pain as the blood oozes out from her finger. Instead she seemed to like it. Her mum saw her smiling to herself watching the blood flows and rushed to bandage it for her and scolded her for being so careless. Laura turned a deaf ear to the scolding because she already had something in mind, something fun!

Story Time: Part 1

Don’t say things which you don’t mean
“Dear, I love you forever too,” whispered Laura into Mike’s ears. They were both alone in Mike’s apartment on February 14th, 2007. Valentine's Day as most people will know.

Valentine’s Day on the 14th of February is a day of romance for all the loving couples around the world. How it became a day of romance was not clear because Valentine’s day is actually a day to remember St Valentine. It was on this day which he died. (Further history on this man will not be elaborated). It was also on this day where the prices of roses rose up to exorbitant prices and many V-day gifts packages appearing in almost every shopping mall. These gifts and roses are what you will see every other day in the malls if you have been observant enough and not only observant enough to spot them on V-day itself. However it was only on V-day itself or near V-day that people rushed to buy them as if they had never seen all the roses, teddy bears, mugs, key chains etc in their lives. ( a mug with his and her name printed on it romantic? Oh come on, you can do this almost every other day, you can even have your entire bed sheet printed with his and her photographs nowadays.)

Mike is one such ‘romantic’ person, and thankfully (at least to himself), his girlfriend of slightly more than 1 year, Laura, is a sucker for such romantic gifts too. A simple gift by Mike of a keychain made up of the letters L-A-U-R-A would drive Laura mad with happiness cause it was from her darling Mike. And that was what Mike got for Laura for their 1st month anniversary of their relationship. And throughout their one year relationship, little gifts are part and parcel of their lives. And alas, keeping little secrets are also part and parcel of their lives too.
(To be continued....)

Just a random post of no particular reason

No reasons for this post. I remembered I wrote something a few months ago. It may be some lyrics or even a poem. Depends on what you want it to be. It is really not easy to write a song. Someone once told me it is actually easier to write a tune than lyrics. But there are people who writes songs for fun. haha.Wanted to write about my childhood neighbourhood which no longer exist but it turns out to be some sad words. I guess its easy to write sad things.

No Longer There

I woke up one morning
To the sound of passing cars
I looked out the window
And see the same old faces
Happy as they seemed
I felt something missing within

Looking back at the years
That we spent together
Was it just a dream
Or a plastic reality
I tried to shake off that feeling
And lay myself down to sleep again

You’re no longer there
I thought I got it right,
But when I open my eyes,
the memories fade into the night

It was you who started the fight
It was I who want to hold on tight
But no matter how hard I tried
I was unable to keep you by my side
That kind of toxicated feeling
Is killing me inside

You’re no longer there
I thought I got it right,
But when I open my eyes,
the memories fade into the night

That torturous feeling
Is making me sick
I tried to stand up
Only to end up falling again

You’re no longer there
I thought I got it right,
But when I open my eyes,
the memories fade into the night

Back to SG, surprisingly cold weather these few days!

It had been a week since I came back from Genting and I must say that it was a wonderful experience. However, I hardly feel that I am in SG now. Why? Because the weather this week is GOOD! Everyday it has been raining and the nights are super cooling. That should be the temperature every night. Even better will be at this temperature everyday without the rain.

Speaking about my trip to Genting, it was really fun. It started with a long jam at AYE to 2nd link from 8am on a Thursday morning. In the end it took us 7 and a half hours to reach the First World Hotel. Upon reaching, it was another 20mins wait for our room keys. My friend and I got our keys finally and went up to our room. 16th floor and its the first room we see once out of the elevator. I slotted in the card and went in. The room was very small but I find it good enough anyway. As I walked in, I saw some clothes neatly hanged on a bar. Hmm.. not bad, they still provide clothes for us to change after bath maybe. As I walked on, I felt something amiss. How come there is a bra hanging as well? haha. My friend and I was wondering and then we saw bags on the table. I walked into the toilet and saw more clothes and undergarments. 'Oh my God!' I exclaimed. The previous woman has not checked out yet!! We got out of the room and went to the reception to request for a change of room. Well at least there is a good and bad thing to greet us on our arrival. Good thing being we got a dulexe room when we change the room. It was slightly bigger than the normal room. Shiok! Bad thing, we did not get to see free show when we barged into the first room. Period. =P

After unpacking, we rested for a good 10mins before going down to meet the rest of the collegues and their spouses for dinner. 1st stop: Kenny Rogers. Its cheap compared to Singapore as the prices are in ringgit. However, lesson learnt: DO NOT EVER EAT AT KENNY ROGERS in GENTING. Their chicken (or chick I would say) is so small that I can barely see their quarter chicken. Moreover, their side dish serving is super small also. It is definitely not worth it. After dinner at around 5pm, we had a free and easy walk around the indoor park cum shopping. Bought some DVDs (original) and went back to the hotel. We met again at 830pm for a magic show called the FLY. To be fair, it was a decent show. However some of the magic tricks leave very much to be desired as they are being performed against a totally black background. Not very convincing I would say. The acrobats in the same show seems nicer to watch.

After the show, its obvious where we went. Late at night, most shops closed, amusement park closed, yet we feel as though we have tons of energy. Yeah, CASINO here we come. We went to the smaller casino at First World and the first thing we did was to go to the drinks counter to get free drinks. If you want to save money, you can always pop in for free drinks. haha. Walked around a bit and signed up for the casino card. Started with 10RM on 2cents slot machine and played. Within 10mins, I struck a small jackpot. Won RM44. As my friend don't play and keep asking me not to stay too late, I cashed out and left. That covers the cost of the DVDs I bought totally. haha. After that we takeaway MaryBrown Chicken and had supper in the room. Lights out.

2nd day started with a free breakfast at the First World cookhouse. Luckily it was not very crowded when we arrived. The food is ok if you are not too choosy, at least to me. :) After breakfast, we went to buy tickets for the outdoor theme park and the start of our theme park day. Tried the cockscrew and Go Kart initially. Fun. But my Go Kart is so damn slow that my friend, who started way behind me, caught up with me in the 1st lap and I never see him again. I am hitting full acceleration mind you. I even have the time to take out my digital cam and took a video of myself driving because it is too damn slow. Tried a few other rides but to my utmost dissapointment, the ride that I wanted most was under maintenance. Crap! How can they do it on a Fri? Can't they do it on a Mon Tues Wed or Thurs? I do not know what the ride is called, but it is the one where they send you up to a great height and drop you down in 1 swift motion. Many have left their hearts up there and did not managed to get it back I heard. hahaha. In the afternoon, I took a ride where you sit on a chair and it swings you 360 degrees and quite fast. After that, I totally felt nauesous along with a few of my collegues. Do not know why also. Went back to the room and nap for an hour after that. Then at 330pm, we went to watch a 4D show. It was the most horrible 4D show ever with outdated graphics, poor effects and bad storyline. (Ali Baba) After that show to forget, we went to challenge the amusement park again. Tried the superman ride and we were laughing all the way. My sadness and worries left me for momentarily there. Thereafter, we took a monorail ride that circles the whole amusement park. Took a good 25mins and I almost fell asleep in there. Dinner was MaryBrown again and taken away for consumption in our room. My friend was MaryBrown addicted. haha Well at least you don't find MaryBrown in Singapore was the only consolation that I can think of for him. At night, my friend and I walked all the way to the Genting hotel where the big casino is. That was a crowded place as well. Went in and lost 20Rm quite fast after trying various slot machines. Walked around and see the table games and tried the slot machines for 1 last time. Found a machine near the entrance at a corner. My lucky machine haha. Within 40mins I played, strucked 2 small and 1 medium jack pot!! Small being 10RM and medium being 20RM. That almost cover my losses eariler. In the end I still lost 4RM but overall winnings for 2 days stands at 40RM. Better than nothing. Back to room and watched the boring TV till I cannot stand it and went to sleep.

Saturday morning was a sleep in. Slept till 11am. Woke up and prepared to check out at 1230pm. Had a very expensive 'cai fan', 4 dishes and rice, with a bottle of mineral water. 23RM. haha. Bus came at 230pm and we left after that, taking along with me lots of fun memories and leaving some sadness and worries behind.

August is approaching and I look forward to any challenges that comes my way. I shall perservere to the very end. 'Life is not measured by the breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breaths away.' Till I got the motivation to write again. Next up, chalet at Sentosa next weekend and already looking forward to it =)

Escaping the warm SG weather

It had been very warm for the past week or so, even at night. The air is warm and there seems to be no wind at all. I tahan from last week till yesterday night, but finally I gave up. I switched on the air con at 12am last night. haha

Another thing I noticed is that the MRTs in the morning are more packed than usual nowadays. I realised that the timings are actually quite long at peak hours and are not spaced out properly. Yesterday, I had to wait for the 3rd train to come before boarding. Its like at ard 820am at Bukit Batok station. Its obviously a peak hour! And when I reached the platform, time for train to arrive = 5 MINS! I was surprised. You know how many people can gather on the platform on a peak hour in 5 MINS?? When the train comes, it was already quite crowded and the people squeezed in. I am not even close. When the train moves off, as usual, the crowd at the center of the carriages is quite spaced out, whereas 90% of the crowd is squeezed at the door (a bit 夸张 but think you will get my point) The next train goes straight to Pasir Ris arrived in 3 mins. I thought I could get in somehow, but the 1001 people behind me had the same idea too. haha I stopped and stood at the side watching the 1001 people squeeze in a space meant for 101. Finally the 3rd train arrived in another 3 mins which is slightly less crowded and I managed to board, but still have to squeeze a bit.

When the train reaches Jurong East MRT, we have to alight to change train. As much as I dislike those who do not move to the center of the train, those who rushed in the moment the door opened without allowing those poor souls to alight first and those who pretend to be asleep while seeing people who need the seats more than they do, there is another cateogory of people I dislike. That is those who already have a seat and when they reach their destination, they want to be the first to get out also! Especially in a crowded train, for example at Jurong East, all will have to go out. Those happily sitting will suddenly stand up and force their way through the crowd. They want to be the first to get out and be the first to board the next train. Why can't they wait for all those poor souls like me standing all the way to alight first? If only they would give up their seats to the needy as fast and as readily.

Back to the title, I am going GENTING this coming Thursday to Saturday! I have not been there for donkey years! The last actual time I was there, the amusement park was not even built yet. 3-4 years ago, I was in KL with my friends. We actually took a cable car up Genting for a good 3 hours, solely for casino only! All I saw was cable car, casino and cab back down to KL. All in 3 hours, like in Ocean's 13, the heist is done in 3 mins. Its a company sponsored trip and I am going with a friend along with some of my collegues with their spouses and some other staff from Aviva. I really look forward to it and its a nice break after the hetic months. First, the weather should be super nice compared to the warm SG weather. I am going to enjoy the weather there. Secondly, the casino. This is only the 2nd time I've been in a casino and though I know that chances of winning is not very high, I still want to try. Last but not least, I am going to fully enjoy myself and leave all my frustrations and worries at the back of my head. It is the last thing I would want to remember in Genting. Hope to take nice pictures too and I would post them in Friendster when I am back :)

A happy news at least for me, my all time favorite band, the SCORPIONS (refer to my 1st blog entry) are planning to come to Singapore (as well as Korea, India, Japan, Jarkata, KL) as part of their Humanity Asia Tour somewhere in Oct/Nov. I thought I was dreaming when I first saw the news in their offical website. Though nothing is finalised yet, I really hope they will come. They have been around for 30 plus years and they have been to Singapore for concert only twice! Once is 1995 I think and once in 2001. I went for the concert in 2001 ALONE and I regretted one thing. Not that I went alone, but to save a bit of money, I bought the 2nd most expensive ticket. I ended up quite at the front, but at a corner! This time I am going to book my tickets early and get the most expensive ticket, no matter how much it cost! (a word of caution though: the most expensive tickets may not be the best seat afterall, be sure to check the seating arrangments when you book any concerts) But then again, as not many of my friends I know actually like the Scorpions or even heard of them, I may have to go alone again. But its really a rare treat and if I have to go alone, I will go alone. Anyone wants to go with me? haha They have been in Asia now and then, but I am not too crazy yet to even KL just to catch them in concert.

Till I come back from Genting, please take good care of yourself and do not fall sick. Remember to treat the people around you nicely and respect the elderly. The time is always right to do the right thing.
Cheers, Benny